The infant cries and whimpers in my arms as I rock her back and forth.
Her sobs are loud and violent, she will not be comforted.
I sing to her…
You call me out upon the waters,
The great unknown, where feet may fail…
I murmur words of comfort to soothe her, but she cannot hear me above her own voice.
and there I find You in the mystery,
In oceans deep, my faith will stand…
Back and forth in the rocking chair, surrounded by the cool darkness of the nursery. Her sobs turn to hiccups; her hiccups to sniffles.
And I will call upon Your name,
Keep my eyes above the waves.
When oceans rise, my soul will rest in Your embrace.
For I am Yours…
and You are mine.
And now she is still.
Lord, as I rocked the little child to sleep tonight, I recognized something.
I recognized that in those times I despair, and cannot be comforted, there is not one moment that You are not holding me in Your arms, whispering Your words to me, and trying to give me rest.
Blinded by my tears, I cannot look about the proverbial nursery, at the many framed memories on the walls, and see the proof of all You’ve brought me through. I forget the victories, forget the joys. Yet they are there, if I would only see.
You do not forsake me. I cry for answers, for affirmation– but I cannot hear You above the roar of my sobs. My tears are an ocean. I stare at the crashing waves.
But You? You speak in a still small voice. You walk above the waves.
And I? I must be still so that I may listen.
For You walk upon the water, and You call me out to join You.
Song lyrics from..
Hillsong United. “Oceans (Where Feet May Fail)” Zion. Hillsong, Sparrow, 2013. CD.